Blaaarg! Stress is no fun.
It simply is aggravating. Yep, I think I am to that point. There must be so many deep stressors in my life that some type of anger has taken over my subconscious. No, I’m not going to go on some crazy yelling spree or pop an artery, but I can certainly feel it there. Sometimes even the smallest thing seems to upset me. Whenever a lecture contradicts with previously acquired knowledge or experience I mentally frown at it. It seems silly thinking about it now, but I suppose there is stress from all that is changing in my life. I have made a drastic change in my environment and area of study. My character, while slowly adapting, is being overwhelmed from time to time by all of these new tasks. I usually like to live a somewhat routine day, throwing in special events when I can plan them. All of these disruptions and randomized taskings are throwing me off balance. Sometimes I can barely concentrate because my focus is bouncing all over my growing to-do list.
Ahhhh! But alas, sometimes this anger is a gift. Eventually it causes action, for better or for worse, that just puts me on another boat in this vast sea of possibilities. And wow, I’m not even going to start on where my ship is headed. My future has been tossed around for one day me thinks. There are several possibilities but the logistics involved are too much to think about at the moment. For now its time for me to concentrate on the week, the semester, and trying to keep open eyes and open arms for tomorrow.
Peace for now.